Soul Exhaustion

Emotionally abused by my family my entire life and still am. Depressed and terrified as long as I can remember. Continue reading

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Not OK Today

Most days I can push past all the negative thoughts in my head. Most days I can make myself focus on the good things that have happened, are happening, and will happen. Most days I can take a breath and carry on. Today is not that day. Continue reading

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Tell Us A Tale

Dear Evermore Park,

I’m quite sure this is not what you’re looking for but it is the story that came to mind. Either way I would like you to have it. For added atmosphere I listened to ‘Rachmaninov: The Isle of the Dead, Symphonic poem Op. 29 – Andrew Davis‘ on repeat while writing.

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Hopeless Rant

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Conflicting Dreams

I want to live out in the moorlands where I can’t see the nearest house from mine. I want to raise dogs, cats, horses and rats from babies. I want to do archery and learn how to use weapons and various styles of fighting. I want to spend every day outside. I want to draw, paint and write. I want to finish a minimum twenty books a year.

I want to interview people specifically in media. I want to travel the USA if not the world. I want to be a location scout. I want to dress in costume and go to conventions. I want to go to premieres. I want to learn to write scripts. I want to network and promote people and their projects. I want experiences. I want to try my hand at anything I can.

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Empath Troubles

Life as an empath is difficult to say the least. We feel every emotion like getting bowled over by an ocean wave. It’s amazing and powerful but easy to get dragged out to sea. When someone on the other side of the world is going through something bad we wake up from a dead sleep terrified for them and not knowing why. Everything you go through is literally amplified in ourselves. Continue reading

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Dramatic Foolishness

I know it’s “just a show” but I can’t help but feel hurt and even betrayed. I’ve actually been trying not to cry since the announcement of the show’s cancellation. Normally I’m the first to roll my eyes and even giggle at people who have such a reaction. Not this time. Continue reading

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BYUtv Extinct Hypocrisy

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BYUtv Extinct Rant

Their reason for cancelling: Not enough views, review, fans, etc. Of course there weren’t enough! People have to know you exist first! This is what happens when you don’t do the job you were hired to do! I’ve never been angry with a show in my life. I’ve also never mourned a show before now. This one has done both to me. Continue reading

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That’s Good! That’s Bad 0.0

I’ve never been proud to be a Californian until today upon hearing my state is suing the FCC. On the other hand. . . our own states are suing our own government. Is that not pure insanity and the BIGGEST flashing lights, flags, horns, etc. to ANYONE else?! This is embarrassing! And it will also be expensive. . . My wallet is so poor not even a moth comes out when I open it. How about yours?

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